everything is too easy now

I am too intolerant of hardship which means the smallest suggestion of conflict sends me overboard. It shouldn't be like this. I do not have enough responsibilities for a 23 year old. If someone was to look in on my life and hazard a guess, they would assume I was 16. I feel like I have been around forever but behave as though I was born yesterday. I worked so hard last year to fashion a persona which allowed people to believe I was achieving, but now I have unpicked all of the stitches and feel quite ashamed when I allow myself the time to reflect on what a fuck up I have let myself become. The devil may care attitude might look refreshing to some, but really it is just immaturity.