think outside the box

I can't offer you conventional behaviour but I will keep you occupied. I would rather be occupied than bored, personally. The same goes for all the men I subtly reject. I will love you with rose tinted glasses for the rest of our lives, but I won't expect you to see an inch of me as anything less than inadequate, however far our relationship progresses. Mind you, an ego boost is sometimes needed, thank you.

A close friend asked me recently if I had a "one that got away" and I replied "all of them." Letting everyone go and keeping them as friends means I have friends forever rather than people who could've been amazing who I now ignore on the street. I won't die alone if I have my friends, I might die alone if they find someone truly amazing and better than me who sees me as a threat.