so they found something lightyears away from earth with near enough "goldilocks" living conditions, except that it is fixed so from one angle there is an eternal sunrise.

imagine that.

within days of returning to leicester i had compromised my plans of moving in december.
it looks like the easiest thing for me to do is stay a little bit homeless in the new year and just house hop between shifts until march, then go home for a month before canada.

perhaps i had too much diet pepsi when i felt optimistic about this plan... lets see how i feel about it tomorrow when i am tired.

i am certainly not happy with myself at the moment but it would be unfair to insinuate that i was terribly unhappy either. i go through fairly regular stages of absolutley hating myself and feeling very much trapped in my own body to feeling as though i am not in it at all, which at best keeps me occupied.

my life isnt bad. in fact, i count my blessings all the time. i just dont spend enough time with the people who make it worth living.