i fell into a deep sleep this afternoon and while i was there, i turned round with tears in my eyes and found someone i hadnt seen for ten years standing at the door in my head.
she motioned to me, put her arm around me and walked me through an imagined city.
i asked her why she had come back for me and she said "we were never supposed to be sympathetic but i couldnt forget your big eyes"
...and i was so safe and unaware.
i knew my subconscious was just trying to offer me something i had lost in reality.
when i woke up it felt like i was drunk from my dreams and for a while i couldnt remember who and where i really was.
disorientated, i knew at the very least that i was pleased to have forgotten.
why am i so terrified of waking?