tonight i made a promise to myself that i would not let real life get in the way anymore.
i may have put myself into a self induced slumber for months in order to earn money to pursue a dream which i am not entirely sure why i am chasing.
perhaps i will lose myself completley instead of finding whatever it is i feel the need to follow.
but for now i have to restore some sort of balance,
so that at least if at the end of the rainbow there is nothing,
i have not just been watching the rain.